Category Archives: Quantum

Y is for YES!

Thanksgiving Square Chapel copyright Debra Myers Woodward
Thanksgiving Square Chapel
copyright Debra Myers Woodward

I have a friend who loves Yes! In fact, he loves it so much that he has named his consulting business, Live Yes, and…. His name is Travis Thomas and if you haven’t already started listening to his podcasts and daily Periscopes, you are missing out! And he has a book soon to be published too! (Follow this link to find out more about Travis and Live Yes, and…!)

I took a “30 days of Yes” course with him a couple of times. It is a real stretch for the places where I have preferred to settle back to my comfort zone, but even so (and especially because of that) I highly recommend it.

For example, one of the days the assignment is to call someone and tell them you appreciate them.  I’m not sure I have done that yet during the course. (I am noticing that some days I just say no. haha!) To be honest, I am not a big fan of talking on the phone, unless someone like my sister calls me and we catch up and talk for quite a while.  Otherwise, I have found texting to be a life-saver.

But I have noticed that recently, I have been making more phone calls instead of texting, especially when I am coordinating information or asking questions. I notice more light-heartedness about calling, that I am not as worried about what the other person will think or how I will get off, if the conversation goes too long. I just offer my honest need to go and let it go!  Its almost an epiphany to learn that it can be so easy.

Today I had to make several (only 4!) phone calls to professors at a local university for whom I had no email address.  On top of that, I had to invite them to an event and explain the purpose while I am still not very fluent in how to discuss it.  I had been avoiding it for a few days and finally, today I did it.  The first one I got a voice mail and hung up.  Then I collected myself and called back and stumbled all over myself but managed to get through it.  The second call someone answered! That was almost worse, and I pretty much fumbled around on that call too.  By the third and fourth calls I was getting the hang of it and did pretty well leaving messages.

And even though I was a bit embarrassed in the moment on the call with a real person in particular, I was able to let it go immediately afterwards.  What would be the purpose of holding onto it? They will either accept our invitation and attend or not. Thats the way of it.

And today, I said YES to walking into my darkness and doing what I was afraid to do, instead of staying in “no” and running from it.  It’s a small step, but thats all it takes to move forward….one small step at a time.

 

W is for Wild

Solar Wind copyright Debra Myers Woodward
Solar Wind
copyright Debra Myers Woodward

There has always been a place in my heart for this word, Wild. I don’t really understand its full meaning or resonance, but it definitely evokes something in me that is primal and vital.

Its not about acting wild. It doesn’t have to do with physicality either.  It’s more of an honoring of the Source of my existence and living out from that with freedom.

If instead we choose to follow a broad path of acquiescence to societal norms and expectations, we may find that our spirit gets tamped down, caged and eventually withers us from the inside out.

We have all seen these withered people. Some are angry all the time (and rightly so). Others are despondent and depressed. And still others drink or drug their anxiety into numbness and oblivion (even prescribed medication can be a form of numbing because we refuse to acknowledge the real source of our ailment.) And we may recognize the withered one in ourselves.

I remember when the Dallas Zoo had all their big cats in small cages (some still are, I think.)  Their life span at that time was 3 years!  Ours might last a little longer because we let our anxiety seep out or drug it.  But its worth noting that we can’t keep our true wildness caged for too long, or we will wither and die as well.

As for how to go about truly honoring what is inside, I can only suggest that we each find stillness and listen to the voice within.  That voice is God, the Wild Original, and is calling to us always.  The path to our expression of it is our own and will be like no one else’s, although we will find encouragement and camaraderie by others who have the courage to venture toward their wildness as well.

Today is a good day to begin or renew the journey.

U is for Unknown

Garden Nebula copyright Debra Myers Woodward
Garden Nebula
copyright Debra Myers Woodward

I like the writings of Pema Chodron.  She taught me how to stop judging others, to just allow people to make mistakes and be human. And she taught me how to be with myself without judging too. This has been particularly helpful.

One of the concepts she teaches about is groundlessness–another word for the unknown.  Many spiritual teachers encourage their students to relax with what is unknown, to stop trying to outline or control the future, to stop pushing away what we are uncomfortable with, and to stay.  After years of practice, I can say that this has been one of the best lessons for me to learn–stillness.

When we are faced with things we can’t control, when faced with the unknown, we often grope for something familiar, something to hold onto to steady us.  And usually, we end up doing the same things over and over and over again. We react in predictable ways. We run away,  we numb ourselves with addictive substances (alcohol, drugs, sex, food, tv, Facebook), we shut down, or we act out (anger, temper tantrums, depression, tears, sarcasm).  No matter how you slice it, it ain’t pretty.

But learning to sit with the discomfort and just to stay, even to move in closer to learn what it is really about, is to learn to be still.  And when we are still, we can see things more clearly than ever before. What seemed so terrifyingly unknown is actually very simple. We may not know what the next moment will bring, but it doesn’t matter, because we aren’t afraid to sit with it. Whether it is light or dark, we know we won’t run. Because we have learned to be still, we aren’t afraid of our reactions.  Even if we choose to react, we soon see it in the reflection of stillness.

Then the unknown becomes a friend and an adventure. Everything is an opportunity to learn more about this amazing Life and our place in it.

T is for Tests

Energy River copyright Debra Myers Woodward
Energy River
copyright Debra Myers Woodward

I have often lamented the battery of standardized tests that my kids have to take every Spring. It isn’t given just to score how well the school is teaching children in my state, it determines whether they can move up to the next grade level. I find it tantamount to treason (and 2 more T words!)

In life though, as we learn new concepts, we are often put to the test. The situation comes up once again, suspiciously similar to the last one that “taught us a lesson.”  And we have the opportunity to put our new-found knowledge to use. Or not.

If not, we can be assured that it will come up again…and again….and again.  Life is very thorough in that way. We will get to keep repeating this grade level until we pass the test. Then we are given more to handle.

I have thought about this in terms of career and relationships and other life responsibilities.  Like many people, I would love a successful career. But have I demonstrated that I can handle the one I have yet?  And I realize I have no idea how I would handle a lot of clients or customers or commissions. I don’t know how to do large-scale business deals. These things I am not even prepared to approach!

Its been a great thing to notice this so that I can watch for what lessons I am learning and what tests I am being given. And great incentive not to fall back on the old ways of doing things but to take what I learn and use it.

P is for Purpose

"The Deep within" copyright Debra Myers Woodward
“The Deep within”
copyright Debra Myers Woodward

I know we hear a lot about purpose these days. We hear that we are supposed to have a purpose, that we need to find our purpose, that we need to live out from our purpose.

I was recently listening to Byron Katie on YouTube talk about purpose. She took it down to the basics.  Her purpose was to sit in that chair in that moment, to breathe, to move her hand in just that way.  This could seem simplistic, but what I came away with is that our purpose is to be in the moment!

Can I live out from this moment and “move at the impulse of Thy Love,” as an old church hymn goes.  Can I take this day as it comes? Can I listen and do what comes to me to do without argument? without resistance? without complaint?

“Do the dishes.” Move to the sink and begin washing the dishes. “Wash the dog.” Gather the towels, soap and take poor pup to the patio.  These are the instructions we hear in our thoughts, not what comes from another person.  They might also tell us to rest, or run, or work, or play.  Instead of justifying our taking a rest and complaining that we have to help someone, lets be with our purpose to live this moment however it comes to us to live it. Own it!

 

Newest Paintings

"Yin, Yang, and the Pollinators" 8x8Acrylic ink on canvas$140

I have added more paintings to my “Paintings for Sale” page. Click on the link in the upper right hand corner.  This latest painting is sparking some discussion that sounds like an example of a Rorschach test. The latest idea is two bears. I like the idea that they are hugging!  More examples of our Oneness with all Life.  I had the amazing opportunity to hear Dr. Laurance Doyle speak this past weekend, and learned about how many species (all?) communicate and have intelligence.  In particular he talked about bees, dolphins, whales, and trees.  He shared his knowledge of leaves and that they are quantum computers that actually capture light without collapsing it.  I think he said that it is the most gentle process on earth.  If the talk is posted online, I will see if I can get permission to post a link to it here.  Peace out!