Do you know how sometimes there are things in life that you just don’t want to deal with? It might be a difficult relationship, or knotty problem, or even a important thing like your health? It’s too … something… too scary? too uncertain? too hard to deal with, so you don’t. You just keep pushing the thought of it away, because whenever it comes up, DRAGONS. That’s what it feels like. Fire-breathing dragons.
My dragon has been the thought of getting a regular full-time job. I’ve worked part-time jobs over the years, and I have sold art, writing, and other things along the way (candles, anyone?) But the whole 9 to 5 thing really has me flustered.
This morning I took a closer look at why that was so scary to me. And it was clear that I was holding the image of my former full-time jobs from over 20 years ago–sitting at a desk all day, waiting for the weekends, dealing with back and shoulder pain and bosses’ expectations. Or on the flip-side, working in retail or food on my feet all day.
And it hit me. Even though over 20 years has passed, I still believe that all full-time jobs (that I might be able to get) are like that. Talk about being stuck looking in the rearview mirror! Who’s driving the car?!
If we are going to move forward, we really need to look where we are going, and spend much less time looking in the rearview mirror. It’s helpful to glance back there from time to time, but if we stay focused there, we have to stop the car or have a wreck.
I’m looking forward to seeing what’s around the bend. Can you identify areas in your life where you are focused on the dragons in your past? Take a look more closely, maybe the fire is just all smoke and mirrors.
So when I sat down yesterday to think about what I would write about, I wondered what word that begins with C would come up. Immediately, “capture” came to thought. I started to dismiss it and then couldn’t help but wonder, what would I write about capture?
Two things came to thought right away. The first, a common use of the word capture, was that of capturing an animal. It implied traps and cages. Similarly, capturing a criminal might bring up the idea of jail. But the idea that really resonates with me is capturing an image, as in photographing something.
In all the first two examples of capturing, you are confining something to a certain space. In the latter example, you are confining the image to a moment in time. Usually we try to capture moments that are meaningful or beautiful or happy. And often we look back on those photographs with melancholy or sadness because those moments have passed. Things are not as they once were.
And here is where I want to explore a different response. Instead of longing for an imagined past, or hoping for a better future (or afraid of a bad future), I am trying to live in the moment I am in. To take in the beauty, the sadness, the joy, the boredom of THIS moment. It won’t come again. It can’t really be captured and held at all. It must be lived and let go. The more I am able to do that, the more peace I experience. Centered in Now, I am fully present to you, to me, and to this moment. And this moment is something I don’t want to miss.
I have added more paintings to my “Paintings for Sale” page. Click on the link in the upper right hand corner. This latest painting is sparking some discussion that sounds like an example of a Rorschach test. The latest idea is two bears. I like the idea that they are hugging! More examples of our Oneness with all Life. I had the amazing opportunity to hear Dr. Laurance Doyle speak this past weekend, and learned about how many species (all?) communicate and have intelligence. In particular he talked about bees, dolphins, whales, and trees. He shared his knowledge of leaves and that they are quantum computers that actually capture light without collapsing it. I think he said that it is the most gentle process on earth. If the talk is posted online, I will see if I can get permission to post a link to it here. Peace out!
Welcome to my newly updated website. Thank you for visiting. I am working on a new series I call “Cosmos”. My inspiration for this series is found in images from space looking back at earth and out to what lies beyond our galaxy. My Google search revealed that cosmos means “the universe seen as a well-ordered whole,” and “a system of thought.” I am taken with how Grace, Spirit, has ordered our universe in ways that have nothing to do with our desire for control. This idea inspires my every day life, and I find the wisest and most satisfying path is letting go and allowing God, Love, to do the ordering. While I do exert some measure of controlling the processes at work in my art, in the end I rely heavily on letting go to allow the medium to follow its natural course. I hope you enjoy the images. To view works for sale, please click the Paintings for Sale or Prints links in the upper right of this page. For more information about purchasing art, see my Contact page.